As an introvert, it’s obviously really hard for me to meet new people and make new friends. I’m bad at socializing and that will be a problem for me for the rest of my life.
What is annoying me is that for some reason, extroverted people (75% of the population apparently) cannot comprehend that other people maybe aren’t even striving for the life they’re living (many friends, always something to do, always around people, etc.) Personally, I hate being in the center of attention. I hate meeting new people, I hate socializing and just the thought of getting a new text message every two minutes or chatting with 8 people at the same time stressses me out.
I definitely have a different view on life than most people, and to me, that’s perfectly fine. I wonder, why can’t other people accept me the way I accept them? I don’t think that you’ve ever heard someone bragging about not having many friends and spending the nights alone in their room and being fine with that? Because for some reason, everyone expects you to live your life like “extroverts” live it, with many friends and lots of socializing. But for me, personally, I know that that will never happen. I don’t want that to happen.
Apparently I seem to have different goals in life than most people I know. I’m not striving for a bitch-life, I don’t want to be at a different party every weekend and I don’t want to be fucking around with everyone. (I would want to go to partys from time to time, but I guess you get my point.) I don’t want to be the one running around with a swarm of girls who all secretly talk shit about me behind my back. I don’t want to change my relationship status every few weeks and I have absolutely no interest in meeting lots of new people at a time.
To be honest, I have found the best friend I could possibly wish for. I can talk to her about anything, I can do everything with her, she would always support me and never do something to purposely harm me. And actually, she’s the only friend I really need and want. Building that kind of relationship with her was so much work, and I’m way too lazy to do that all over again. Besides, I don’t think I would ever find someone like her again.
I dream of having a few contacts that I could normally talk to and spend some time with at some point though, and finding a boyfriend someday who I truly like and want to spend my time with.
I can’t understand how people cannot accept me and my (actually way more reasonable) goals in life and see the need to call me (or me and my bestfriend) a “loser”. Just because I don’t exactly look like shit you expect me to be someone I’m not?
I enjoy philosophy and learning about anatomy, I like tea and spending time alone without having to talk to someone. I don’t feel like talking a lot most of the time and I get uncomfortable very quickly. I’m actually quite loyal and I would never shit-talk a close friend of mine behind my back. I’m a good listener and I give good advice. (And I know that my extroverted Ex-Bestfriend wishes she could have me back because she needs someone in her life who is always there and gives her the attention she needs.) I’m insecure often and I like reading philosophy books. I could never lie to my parents (to go to a party for example) and I want them to be proud of me. I love the thought of driving a car with my bestfriend somewhere no one knows us and we would just follow the road. I like learning about health/fitness and I also enjoy healthy cooking. My goals in life do not contain partying every single weekend and I have no interest in being called “easy” or a slut. I do spend a lot of time thinking about the future and planning my life, and I also worry a lot. I enjoy laying on the couch on a rainy day and watching something interesting on T.V. and not having to worry about anything. I hate stress and being in the center of attention. Also I hate the thought of being tethered to a certain city or country and I wish I could just go somewhere else, wherever I wanted to.
So just because apparently I look like a “bitch” I can’t be all of those things above? I’m a loser because my goals in life are different from yours?
Why can’t you just accept that not everyone is the same?